As I write today I am writing only for myself, and how I am feeling. I sit alone, truly alone, no one in the house, no kids, no dog, no husband, no baby growing in me. I am scared, I am afraid no one will treat me like myself again, they will forget about my loving spirit, forget my laughter, forget me dancing all over the place, forget my chitter chatter, forget my silly ways or forget just having a glass of wine with me. I know I mourn for my baby, and I may cry, but this does not define me. I want everyone to know, I am ok to talk to you, I can talk about Elijah’s life, I can talk about his death, I don’t have to talk about him with you at all if your not comfortable, but I am Tera and I am the same person, mother, sister, and friend I have always been. Yes I did have something wonderful and sad happen to me but it is still me , it does not define me. I can be strong, I can be weak, I can be whatever you lead with. I don’t want to be left alone by family and friends as I have always turned to and needed you in the past, it is the same now. I want to share, if you want to hear. I can write, you can read, I can talk, you can listen, and vice versa. I appreciate you all and love you, and wanted you to know I am here. Some of you may be mourning Elijah and I am here I can share and I will listen.