I know you are waiting to hear, Elijah is really struggling to maintain his stats. The doctors and nurses are doing everything they can to stabilize him but he just keeps slipping. Again no on has stopped moving since he came to the unit, he wont let them. They have called the surgeons back in and are talking about opening Elijah back up. They are worried he may be swelling and collecting with fluid cause pressure to build up without release.
I am feeling week and feel like I can do nothing but pray and tell Elijah how much I love him . I tell him what a strong boy he is and that if he can’t fight anymore I understand. I tell God the same thing to listen to Elijah and his soul and know when my brave little man can fight and when it’s time to stop. I love him, I love him, I’m so scared, just tell me what’s going to happen, I’m so scared.
The nurse just made a comment that as long as Elijah has Everyone’s full attention he behaves, so now that all the doctors are here, he has been ok for a little while. More waiting…Allison is here rubbing my back and telling me I am doing a great job, and it’s ok to ot know what to say and how to feel except I do know I feel like my heart is slowing breaking.