Here I sit on the floor of Elijah’s nursery writing this email with a heavy heart. Today April 30 Elijah Thomas passed away while we held our son in our arms.The song “Son of God” played in the back ground over and over again.(If you are not familiar with this song you can go to Rivchurch.com and look under the music link and there you can hear Dan Price singing with Kristen Cambern singing out to God from one of our services) The Lyrics speak for themselves I would love if you please listen, writing these lyrics right now may be to hard for me to do. This song just played over and over while our son took his final breath from his exhausted little body and went to his heavenly father for comfort and love that we could not provide him. I felt a calm rush over me as Ron sits holding the head of our son and he looks into our eyes one last time.We are alone with our boy as he passes no more nurses , or doctors, or machines just Elijah’s three parents Ron, myself and God. After a few minutes Dr Jason Christensen steps in and unwraps the blanket he listens no more broken little heart beating. I hold him, I can’t let go, I sit rocking my baby boy.
After a while Jen our amazing nurse steps in and asks if she can finish unhooking Elijah from the machines that had been sustaining Eli’s life. I hand her our baby and go to the grieving room where our parents, Chris and Wendy sit listening to Dan Price a Pastor from our church read bible verses to them.
To take a step back. Before Eli is taken off his ECMO support everyone got to see Elijah unhooked form his ventilator and see his beautiful face while Dan prayed over us and read scripture as well. The song “Let Go” by Matt Hammitt plays over and over.We ask our family to leave so we can share our final moments, with Eli. We again tell him our love, of how proud we are of what he has accomplished on his 12 days on earth, how strong he was, and how it is ok to go be with God. We pass our son from one parent to another into Gods hands.
We then go to sit with a room full of my loved ones, I tell them how E passed on to God and Dan reads more scripture, I am thankful for this. I tell everyone about what Elijah was brought to earth to do because I want no one to forget what an amazing job he did at this. He brought people together in love, and prayer. He has more than 20,000 followers of his blog, these people read and post, people from all over the world 20 different countries follow this little baby boy on his journey to go live with our Heavenly father. We have posts from every nomination church praying for Eli at service, or in life groups, prayer chains, etc. He was amazing even through death he is our miracle, people were brought together with love and compassion. Lets never forget this so Elijah will live on.
We talk about Funeral arrangements and what has to be done and I am at a loss of words or thought. Jen steps in and tells us Elijah’s body is ready to be held. Grandparents hold the body of Elijah but his spirit is living in our hearts. Everyone cries, I have changed the music in the room to “Little Light” by Matt Hammitt. Everyone is done holding him. I get Elijah back in my arms and hold him swaying to the music “Beloved” by Kari Jobe. I hold him, and hold him, I can’t let go. Jenn steps in and I am sobbing over her taking our baby from me. She gives me more time. It’s just Ron and I, I sway, I rock, I kiss my boy all over his body, I can’t hand him over. Ron talks to me, he finally says I will take Elijah and hand him to Jen. I sob, I can’t breath, Ron takes him and kisses him and hands Eli’s body to Jen. He is wrapped in his blanket, I run I kiss his little head and we leave.
I can no longer write for today I will fill everyone in on Elijah’s funeral and other thoughts later.
I leave you all with Thanks.
A post to the music link.